Hesitance

There is a trend in how i start my posts, if i ever get to starting a post:

-there is an apology for not blogging for oh-so long a time.

-there is a mention of if anyone still reads this blog.

-if anyone is surprised after blog stalking that there is a new post.

-there is some sort of mention about this forsaken blog.

To a blog stalker, one thing relieves their nerves and frustrations: a new post. Whether they are dead interested in the lives of people or they are just a busybody (which is kinda the same thing depending on how you look at it) or they are procrastinating instead of studying. Let me soothe your nerve after the frustration of clicking on this link and wondering when will he post something.

What are the things that prevent me from blogging:
-sometimes, there are better things to do.

-sometimes, plain laziness

-other times, it feels like people don't really want to know. they just want something to tickle their fancy.

-also, there is a fine line between revealing too much and when the reader goes "ok, didn't need to know that"

-as with all forms media, we portray what we want the public want to read. And that can make a blog feel fake. There are blogs that are like that. Everything can seem happy and fine when their whole world is actually falling apart.

-people say that blogging, journaling, writing our thoughts out are good to articulate and express how we feel. but there are times when there's too much to think about. there are times when writing out something unpleasant brings unpleasant memories.

So, what's the purpose of this blog? It's not so much a fad anymore. If it's to write down my thoughts, i still use pen and paper. How much do i reveal without being fake or at the other end without being as some people say 'emo'? (HATE that word) Who am i writing for? Is it to update friends?

(i happen to just glance at the title) That was what it's about! Being positive. Telling anyone and everyone who would read that there is hope. Not false pretense, not made up emotional highs. Substantial hope. There is reason to stand and walk tall when everything is falling apart. We'll see how often i blog from hereon.